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Better

2005-09-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

this week is a curse -- sort of,(sigh). i have to admmit that my job performance has been very bad, i wish my loads will lighten, but i doubt. im starting to hate things right now, starting to hate myself cause of poor work, things are scaring me. hay...i guess im just taking things too much, i hope things are more simple...i hope im better...

so negative of me...:(

Time Remaining 000:16

2005-08-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

[one hour surfing at the computer cafe-08/20/2005]
ive got 16 minutes more before this computer shut down. im trying to finish this blog before the clock beeps 000:00. i just hope i can make it. but with too much ideas running in my head, i dont know if i can encapsulate everything with the given time i have...im in a hurry![computer shutdown]

[continued at the office]
i just realize now, how i rush things around me, and how i direct my life...trying to outrun everything, keeping a step ahead or more but then it was a mistake, cause the more i keep my pace ahead, the more i see myself stagnant. I guess I have to take a few moments and reflect on to the things that have been going around for sometime. I need to have an unambiguous point of direction. Instead of rushing things out,i have to take things one at a time, this time 'slowly but surely'.

"Everyone's always in such a rush, but there are myriad benefits to learning how to be still. " - YH

The time has beep 000:00 and its about time, but now i don't have to worry anymore, i might not have finished everything at a desired time but in every second spend, I have the taste of self fulfillment... and -----------------------------------[computer shut down]

UNUSUAL FRIDAY

2005-08-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

(08-12-2005)
this is so unusual, i dnt have anywhere to go or just spend some time to unwind, i decided not to go with our friday sports badminton, cause i was thinking of my mom, she asked me to go home early and finish what she's requesting me to do. though ive been wanting to play coz i havent played last time, i dnt have any choice but to decline my friends invitation, and i think i mess it up. at around 5pm, my officemates are asking me to come with them for an early movie, but i hesitated not to go coz it wud be unfair with my friends.then the next thing was, i txt aphrodite, ask her for any plan that night, trying my luck to sneak an hour for mall, she replied, that 'yup she's going', so i told her, 'im coming', unfortunately at around 6pm, ive been asked to work on something here at the office. Oh well, life has to be this way at times...